cold

I cannot let myself run wild with emotion, I am restrained
and with this
restraint
I will carry on, cold.

You left.
I felt abandoned for a MOMENT.The warmth was gone the cold seeped in from every empty crack you widened when you left.
But I have been alone before. This does not hurt.

It does not hurt.

And that is what scares me. The ease of you being out of reach. I feel incomplete, yes, dead, not myself.
But there is no pain. no deep longing. you are gone and I have accepted it all to easy, with out high story book drama.
Were we in love?
I don't know. I hardly believe in love anymore.
but I know with you
you take something from ME. and I feel empty.
I feel cold.